well i finally caught up on my sleep!  lol  but tonite ill be up all night again b/c its girls night w/ jenn and jessica!  im excited its gonna be fun!!  we are meeting at fat boys for dinner then all coming to my house for a sleep over!  yay!  last night i woke up for a few hours and worshipped god some...it was good!  like its weird to jump into this w/ both feet like i have...b/c i havent felt god in so long...but i can feel him again and im excited! i got a verse:

Ezekiel 36:26   &n bsp;    "I will give you a new heart, with new and right desires, and I will put a new spirit in you."

i like it!  it deff applies to me right now!  alrighty well im gonna go get ready for the girls to come over!  so til later....much love!

so far im doing great!  im totally exhausted but thats prob b/c i never went to sleep last night...im going on like 28 hours of being awake and i have to stay up til at least 10 so i can get a good full nights sleep.  thats the reason i feel loopy today!  but on a good note i went to church today!  it was palm sunday!  i got a palm leaf!  lol...i really felt God!  it was awesome...beforei went to church i listened to my third day and sonicflood cds and i just worshiped and praised God!  i havent done that in soooo long!  it felt really good!   i read my Bible too!  then today after church i went to a play that some friends of mine from church were in...i wentw/ a bunch of ppl from church!  so my whole day was pretty much spirit filled and God focused!  it was a lotta fun...i just wish i would have been more alert for the play!  but i still enjoyed it!  i think liza is coming over to keep me awake tonite...she goes back to tampa tomm...blah...it sucks b/c we never see or really get to talk to eachother anymore b/c she lives so far now and we both are busy w/ our own lives...OHHH YEAH...i think ive figured out what i wanna do w/ the whole college thing!  im gonna go to VCC and get my AA and im gonna try to get really good grades so maybe i can get a scholorship then im gonna transfer to a christian college...maybe southeastern...and finish school there!  hopefully it works out!  b/c i know that it will be a good foundation for me to be in a christian school...and it will help me a lot in the future!  so pray for me about that!!!  ill be praying bout it too!  AND...hopefully ill get to go to alabama for this summer w/ the youth group...i used to go every year w/ them and it was soooo awesome to feel God...like we were on a mountian in the middle of no where w/ no distractions....just me, nature and God!   it was the best...and i could really use it!  a mountian top expierance!  so im gonna talk to the youth leaders about that tonite i think....ill call them!  ok...well im gonna go now...later gator!

"WHO WILL BE THE SALT IF THE SALT SHOULD LOOSE ITS FLAVOR?"

ok...well hi!  im carla.  this is gonna hopefully be a daily thing i do to help myself with my relationship with God!  im really trying to get back on the right path and ive realized that im unhappy w/ myself and i wanna become happy again and i know the only way to do that is to put God first in my life!  so im a normal 19 year old girl who does normal teenage things.  i dont have much support in the Christianity department...a few friends that i can talk to are Cristen, Corey, and some people i used to go to youth group w/.  i need someone i talk to on a regular basis to hold me accountable for the stupid things i do...im trying to figure out who that will be.  i really love God!  and i dont wanna live as an unpure person anymore....i want to get the purity and happieness that i used to glow with back!! so i might need some help! if anyone ever sees that im being dumb and not realizing that what im doing is wrong please tell me!  id really appreciate it!  and comments are always nice!  im really scared b/c i know this isnt gonna be easy to break my bad habits and to go into the world as a Godly person...its gonna be really hard and i may make some friends mad and i may even lose a friend or 2 in the process...im gonna try my hardest tho.  because God is the most important thing in my life and i need to put him first again!

so here i go on my walk...i invite you all to join me as i fight the battles of good versus evil.  as i mess up and try again b/c i know thats bound to happen!  but i know im really trying and God does as well so i guess thats all that really matters! pray for me and encourage me on the way! Thanks!

Todays Scripture that speaks to me is:  

Romans 12:2   "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."

well im still trying to figure this thing out...so im not sure if ill keep it or not...so far i think i like it!  im prob gonna have to transfer all my other blog stuff over here!  lets see how it works...so just bean w/ me for a bit! thansk

carla bean